The Guy #14: Cutie

He’s 5 years younger but rather mature than his age.

He’s very cute, smart, nice and he thinks he’s in love with me.

I think it might work out.

The guy #13 is finally lost I guess.

I am moving on.

I am going out with a new guy.

He’s lost like last year’s snow. I should move on but how? :(

ok big boy, i think you are lost, so here’s a map for you:
what’s up with inviting me home, turning on really loud music, making out, never-asking-questions and only talking about yourself? if you want a relationship, do me a favor and take me to a real date. not a rel-ship type? That’s ok too. But what’s up with not touching me at all? because everytime i feel sexy it’s because i am sexy, not because you make me feel sexy. If you want a random hook up, damn, make me wet! and if not wanting any of this why calling me at all?

This is the first time I had a desire that he could be not just the guy #13 but THE guy.

I’ve been thinking lately.

He doesn’t call, neither do I.But I am constantly thinking about him and I can’t help it…

How could we re-connect?

My friend told me that I get an inner conflict here. If I truly believe that he’s the one who I need and If I think that he’s not like others, why do I treat him like I would treat any other man? Like, if he’s really different and he’s the only one who would understand me, why do I need this shield-against-men here? Should I do something about this relationship?

And logically my answer was – yes.

What will I lose anyway?

If he’s the one we’ll be together anyway, but if he’s not the one, we would end up in fights and tears anyway… So there is a point of doing something about it to find out if he is really the ONE I need.

SO. I decided to make it happen. Like Amelie did. Do you remember that movie? I watch it like crazy every time I am depressed and I always wanted to do something like what Amelie did for his guy. You know, going through the clues and places without knowing who’s doing all that.

And I have a plan what to do for my guy. I know his phone number, his apartment, his work place, so it wouldn’t be that hard…

Everyone loves games and mysteries and especially him. I am sure he’ll join… If he won’t then I’ll give up on him…

Maybe this is very stupid but I know I’ll regret it for my whole life if I don’t do it.

I’ll post the details later. ;)

someone smells just like him in the bus and it’s mind-blowing!!! how could he dump me like that?

I think I’m in love for the third time in my life.

Define love? no one can. But this feeling inside me is the exactly same as I had towards the Guy #3 and the Guy #1.

What I felt for the rest was just a dim reflection of their own love for me.

The first…

The third…

The thirteenth…

There’s a magic in the numbers.

It never worked out with the previous two. And I want this one to work so much, but even if it fails, I am happy.

I’ve momentarily acquired a great enthusiasm to wake up in the mornings, to live, to work, to diet, to exercise, to become happy and beautiful, to move forward and work on myself.

And above all I still believe that there is love on earth!

Thank you for being so great that I fell in love with you!

How can i be friends with someone if i can’t be open about my sexuality with them? i feel insecure when i say ‘i would bang that girl’ and they get this : O face right there.

This is so wierd waiting for a call/text and checking the phone every three minutes. When that call/text is being late for 2 days.

can’t believe i made it all up. can’t believe he doesn’t like me as much as it seemed. can’t believe he’s never calling me. And even if it’s all true why can’t i just stop thinking about him and fall asleep? I haven’t felt this way towards anyone for a really long time. Like… 5 years maybe? crush.

The philoshy of life is to live it from disappointment to disappointment cause they will come from time to time no matter what and all we ever have left to enjoy is the time between those disappointments.

He’s just not that into me.

The guy #13: Black

Met him during my vacation in the club. He’s black. Year older. so Hot + so Smart + so musical + so deep + so interesting + so exotic + so not calling/texting me when promised. :(((

I think i found him. A little flow – he’s black – and even if he’s into me, my family will never gonna approve it. fail.

How come guy is walking down the street with his hand on a girl’s shoulder and staring at me with flirty eyes. oh my oh! Everyone’s a cheater. :(

The Guy#10 tweeted that he missed me and he regretted to reject the offer of me visiting him.
the exact tweets:
HIM: hey, what’s up crazy adventurer? Miss you a bit) [WOW! THIS IS THE FIRST TIME HE ACTUALLY TOLD THIS AFTER THE BREAK-UP!]
ME: “Crazy adventurer” is the exact word that describes me. :D But ##### [THE TOWN WHERE I AM ON VACATION] already bores me to death! Miss you too a bit )) [I DON'T MISS HIM! I JUST WANT TO TORTURE HIM WHEN HE'LL BE ASKING TO GET BACK!]
HIM: did you check out my last picz? I’m more handsome than ever. P. S. I’d be happy to see you in ######## [THE TOWN WHERE HE WAS ON VACATION] after my refusing.

LOSER.

The Guy #11: Violator

A year older than me. Local not-so-popular celebrity. He had this strange self-confidence thing going on and he was making it very clear that he wanted to have sex with me so much every time we met. But I am not that kinda girl to let such jerks do things they wanna do. We had nothing but a lousy kisses. Dumped him.

The Guy #12: Provincial

3 years younger than me. Met him when I was on vacation. He had big, deep, green eyes and biceps that I adored from the first sight. When I was looking in his eyes I couldn’t stop myself from kissing him. And that was the mistake I made. I guess he never experienced thing like that before: beautiful, smart girl, who’s not against kissing at all.

He was too sincere about his feelings and I felt his heart-beat from the distance, but he was so uneducated we could barely understand each other. I never mentioned I was ever married and he never brought up sex during the conversation. He wasn’t trying to touch me in a sexy way. This was the most sex-free relationship I’ve ever had.

Sometimes sincerity and simplicity are the most powerful weapon for a man.

It’s never gonna work out between 21th century girl and 20th century guy. Vice versa is possible though!

Walking with a complete stranger alone in the middle of the night is getting boring. He’s kinda cute but uneducated and absolutely out of line

the GUY #9 asked me to spend vacation with him… only because he didn’t have money to pay his vacation bills!!!!

Now I realize that he was trying to use me a lot lately!

I’m hooked on this feeling towards the Guy #10. He’s out of town now. I am thinking of visiting him where he is… Too bad he doesn’t answer my texts.. :(

I started something with this girl… But I ended it right there. I like her. She’s amazing. But she’s got a boyfriend and she won’t leave him. I don’t wanna be used and hurt again!

I’m not a lesbian, neither is my girlfriend. :)

Imagine ME and YOU.

No one wants to be with me. Because my life is fucked up.